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aşk.

Kavga ederken bile hassiktir ne kadar güzel biriyleyim, çok tatlı diye düşünmektir..

-mak -mek

sınavlar gelirken yazar olmak sözlükten kopamamak..
spora gidicek zaman bulamamak..
lol oynayarak sinir atmak..
yaşlandığımı hissetmek..
bitirme projesi yazmak..

dub dub diye yapıcaz hepsini..

Kaizokuo ni ore wa naru!

mutsuzluk.

this could be the very last kiss,
from my lil miss perfect,
certainly i savour that,
funny that the money pays for stuff but doesn't pay for that,
special little moment,
i know what i'm after,
don't know what i'm aiming at,
didn't mind the baby chat (no, no),
or giving you my name or that,
the apple of my eye,
it puzzled me sometimes,
i need to find the apple guy and maybe he can make an (ah?)
feeling that,
maybe we should take another roll of the dice

can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do
can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do

i used to sleep like a baby,
now i lay awake at night thinking about my lady,
maybe i should take a bite, maybe i should take a plunge,
maybe i should cancel all my flights,
take a right turn, left is just a place to run,
from my demons, no one understands me,
better than my girl, 'cept my family,
and we hanging by a thread,
i go to turn my head,
think twice, maybe,
take another roll of the dice

can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do
can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do

i've got two main worries in my mind,
one, will i ever find another girl as beautiful and kind?
two, and if i say goodbye will i mind if i saw you in the streets with
other guys,
i try,
i really do tell myself,
mate, this is 50-50, this is give and take,
but i just make mistakes, this is 70-30,
christ, i think we could be running out of rolls of the dice,

can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do
can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do

i never, ever, ever, ever, wanna forget
i'm gonna keep the ticket start from when we first met,
i never, ever, ever, ever, wanna forget
i'm gonna keep the ticket start from when we first met

can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do
can't believe we both let it fade away,
i wanna stay for another day,
if you wanna save us, give me a signal,
anything will do

fuck me

fuck you,
fuck him,
fuck her,
fuck everything,
fuck everything you have done,
fuck the things i have done wrong,
fuck twice the things i have done right,
fuck the walks in the rain,
fuck the nights,
fuck the mountains,
fuck the ropes,
fuck the music,
fuck the water,
fuck the sea,
fuck the time,
fuck istanbul seven times,
fuck the dance,
fuck the effort,
fuck the moment,
fuck the breath ,
fuck the jokes,
fuck the stories,
fuck that man,
fuck my trust,
fuck my anger,
fuck my brain,
fuck my chest,
fuck my lungs,
fuck my heart..

Kaizoku!

bu şarkı çok güzel..

the cooper temple clause - connect

No need to wait
I’m heading off
I don’t feel like I want you as part of life
How your eyes look sad and surprised
I don’t care I’m leaving tonight

I’ve had enough
You’ve given up
I swore this would never happen again
You don’t cause my lips to keel
Your touch has lost its appeal

I trusted you in my arms
I carried you with my heart
It’s criminal not to feel at all
I’m sorry but you’ve left it too late

We can’t keep holding on
We’re low on luck and out of time
I can’t keep holding on
It’s unmistakable we are incapable of love

I’ve had enough
You’ve given up
I don’t feel like I want you as part of life
You held control all the time
No longer there by my side

I trusted you in my arms
I carried you with my heart
It’s criminal not to feel at all
I’m sorry but you’ve left it too late

We can’t keep holding on
We’re low on luck and out of time
I can’t keep holding on for you to one day change your mind
We can’t keep holding on
We’re low on luck and out of time
I can’t keep holding on
It’s unmistakable we are incapable of love

It’s hopeless you don’t help things
Your kiss could suck the life out of anything
It’s over
You broke this
Lips were shaking
Don’t feel we connect
I trusted you in my arms
I carried you with my heart
It’s criminal not to feel at all
I’m sorry but you’ve left it too late

We can’t keep holding on
We’re low on luck and out of time
I can’t keep holding on for you to one day change your mind
We can’t keep holding on
We’re low on luck and out of time
I can’t keep holding on
It’s unmistakable we are incapable of love


evet biraz kendime geldim, hatta baya geldim, önümüz alamazlar artık o derece..

sigarayı bırakalı 6 gün oldu hele bir ayı tamamlıyalım da..
içki içmeyeli 10 gün oldu hadi bakalım..

buraya yazıyim ki sonra tarihten ne kadar olduğuna bakarım mantığı :D ..

ONE PIECE'e bayılıyorum, hayatımda izlediğim en güzel şeylerden biri..

Düşününce her karakter kendi içinde bir mükemmel, ama en sevdiğim Tony Tony Chopper!
hele birde böyle ters saklanmıyor mu ölüyorum gülmekten..

birde ISSHA ISSHA ISSHA diye bağırmasına bayılıyorum :D

tabi "rumble ball" karizmasını tek geçerim..


Japonyada 2 ayda, 8 kilo alma başarısı gösterdim.. tabi raki balık gibi sake balık + bira yapınca sıksık olmuyor..

neyse geleli nerdeyse 4 kilo oldu verdiğim daha da olucak bakalım..

bu arada dredg konseri var ayın 1 inde, o gün bir bira içilir ama :D




Dredg - Another Tribe

i've forgotten how to smile
a common relapse, an ocean of change within
i didn't know i was going to be the prey
until it was already much too late

the always say they're against the grain
come on, they all look the same
they just joined another tribe
to help them build up some old fight
nothing new to see here

ohhh, ohh, ohh

here we go, go again
following all the trends
it's become an obsession
yet it's time to accept it, yeah

here we go, go again
following all the trends
it's become an obsession
yet it's time to accept it, yeah

it's raining again
creating puddles of eternity
it's where my passion ends
and the insecurity begins

all of this combined
contaminating me
maybe someday we will see
maybe someday we will see

they always say they're against the grain
come on they all look the same
they just joined another tribe
to help them build up some old fight
nothing new to see here

ohhh, ohh, ohh

here we go, go again
following all the trends
it's become an obsession
yet it's time to accept it, yeah

here we go, go again
following all the trends
it's become an obsession
yet it's time to accept it, yeah

where is, where is your deceit
give us something real
wipe up your smile
no more deception
is this real?

here we go, go again
following all the trends
it's become an obsession
yet it's time to accept it, yeah

here we go, go again
following all the trends
it's become an obsession
yet it's time to accept it, yeah

yarın oryantasyon bakalım yorulucaz, son kez yurda yerleştik.. neyse yorgunum aklıma bu kadar geldi..

bu şarkıya inanılmaz sardım bu günlerde..

Bloodhound Gang - I hope you die!

you must die i alone am best!

i hope ya flip some guy the bird
he cuts you off and you're forced to swerve
in front of the beatles' tour bus
a bookmobile and a mack truck
hauling hazardous biological waste
the light turns red you have no brakes
and "hard copy" gets it all on tape
so you can see the look on your face

die die die die die die die
die die die die die die die

i hope your pinto begins to spin
takes out a disabled vietnam veteran
mows down a nobel peace prize winner
and maybe some orphans having christmas dinner
perhaps even the british royal family
and the rabbi that's clutching the bottle-fed puppy
and we can't forget the newlyweds
and those jerry's kids are as good as dead

i hope this helps to emphasize
i hope this helps to clarify
i hope you die

i hope your cellmate thinks he's god
but c.n.n. refer to him as "bowling ball bag bob"
serving time again for abuse of a corpse
only this time the victim's a clydesdale horse
while he masturbates to photos of livestock
he does the "silence of the lambs" dance to christian rock
eats feces and quotes from "deliverance"
and fights with his imaginary playmate vince

die die die die die die die
die die die die die die die

i hope he grins like jack nicholson
and forces you to play a game called "balls on chin"
and whatever happens next is all a blur
but you remember "fist" can be a verb
and when you finally regain consciousness
you're bound and gagged in a wedding dress
and the prison guard looks the other way
‘cause he's the guy ya flipped the bird the other day

i hope this helps to emphasize
i hope this helps to clarify
i hope you die

i hope you die

gece 3

Gece 3 de gözümde yaşlarla uyanmak hiç ama hiç hoş olmadı.. hani o acıyı bir daha yaşamak, göğsümün ağrıması..

Rüya olarak başladı herşey.. sert bir yatak, sert bir yastık, zor bir uyuma süreci..
Karanlık bir oda.. bir anda seni gördüm.. karanlık içinde bembeyaz bir elbise üstünde parlıyor, esmer tenine vuruyor.. gözlerin hafif yaşlı, ve belirsiz garip ama güzel bir bakış.. sanki biraz umutlu.. mahçup bi ifade.. tenin yumuşacık, ellerimi tuttun..

"kimse senin gibi değil" dedin.. şaşırdım, yine.. ikinci kez aynı şey.. "kimse.." dedin ve yere düştün.. ellerinden tuttup çekmeye çalıştım ama olmadı.. "niye böyle yapıyorsun" demedim.. ismini söyledim.. "yapma" demek istedim.. diyemedim..
baktın bana.. o aşkı gördüm.. sarıldım sana.. gerçektin.. galiba.

ardından baya geçti.. o kısımları aklımda yok.. amma sonra geldin yine bana.. yine gözlerde aynı durgunluk.. kötü anlamda bi durgunluk..

ayrılık..

ben başkasını seviyorum dedin.. parçalandım.. sadece kalbim değil.. sanki böyle bir mızrak geldi, göğsümden içeri girdi.. girerken çatladı ruhum.. bedenim.. çatlaklar ilerledi, göğsümden kollarıma, bacaklarıma, vucüdumun her noktasına ilerledi.. buz gibi kırıldım.. sense hiç takmadın.. yada ben hiç göremedim..

gece 3 de ağlıyarak uyanmak hiç ama hiç hoş olmadı..


26/08/11

Wakamatsu-Japonya